there is nothing to say except all the things i do not. when it was over things lightened up greatly. brightened in a dark amber glow, knew more than we thought. wondered at it. wonder was an incredible vehicle for seeing. the cat sits behind on my left facing the other way, north. and… Continue reading epilogue_journal entry
the eight settled down with their heads on the ground- and sound roared up from their ankles. knees move into space it has bent it again. space bent light. space is not one thing. consistently. its constitution of liquid flow, quaseous clouds, empty vessel. what empty? no. full. we cannot fit in. too dense it… Continue reading beat
_____________ after each breath i see a glimmer is it? maybe water it is a glow about it a light the sparkles; a glimmer and a crease in the fold a glimmer shining soft and bold more than before like i got up quick and must sit but not dizzy from it a glimmer is… Continue reading process notes excerpt, during participation at the Mind and Life Europe Summer Research Institute 2021
catch me in that dream again i remember quite clearly: i wake in a small tall house with three levels curtains billow through sun beams and open panes there is a dog on each floor, sleep / waking i am there with love who is away just now and will be home again a sense… Continue reading the dream again
heart of throws_ throw of hearts_ my hand_ cervical spine_ cervix_ mine. a mother un/becoming; bleed sloughing cells of un/made minds. it doesn't make me sad today that i have no child that i never had any; i am grateful as time alone is so precious. i have come to my own blood by making… Continue reading blood out
time is water all around_ immeasurable depths_ i am floating. i am not a floating thing -- i am floating, the activity_ in a depth created by gravity. i dreamed it so in movement this week_ and i keep seeing it_ awake and asleep_ it is me _ breathing _ swimming easily _ curled upright,… Continue reading context swimming
change is perceived and we call it TIME. IMAGINE space is a plasma-like substance and TIME is the movement of mass which creates variable waves in all directions. waves create dimensions. whether planets, light or energy - mass is moving and changing. we observe it from our perspective. and so, OUR perspective is TIME. TIME… Continue reading what if gravity is not what we think?
first in site tag #AutoEthnography #ArchiveExcerpt for excerpts from my notebooks. The notebooks are a one-stop for my academic research | choreographic notes | poetry | meeting minutes | sketches | reflection | and dreams. The process of going through the last ten years of these is a ritual of burning things; making art of… Continue reading ae
clocking time watch the years go by dance fills the space a partner left to right inside sit books now full i write dream made visible after paint dries you arrive are whole here while all of time describes nothing and no time as everything sentient to some continue in death a life. image: screenshot… Continue reading clocking dance inside i dream you are here all nothing and everything to continue a life.
may the ancestors hold me. may i be without fear and without anger. may my boundaries be healthy and may they be clear. i am responsible for my journey. i notice. i am tensing. let go. it’s okay to be freezing. it’s okay to have heat. it’s okay for the sun to beat down on… Continue reading boundless
jan 1, 2020 edit jan 18 i am not like i have ever been something different about every cell of being thoughts patterned turn off new bridges form a way to destiny leave it to be a person becoming shock and wave goodbye comes free light falls just so on the corner of me my… Continue reading details
heat splashes. do you rise? make a joke, something light. i saw a squirrel once, it moved with fright but it was alright. was that funny? what is? light is not light. write what you see. the jade plant beside me. in front of me. its leaves are wax petals light, white on the green.… Continue reading on a bench, barely